"Before you diagnose yourself with depression or low self-esteem, first make sure that you are not, in fact, just surrounded by idiots" Sigmund Freud

I just want to go...

Most people don't want to emmigrate because they don't want to leave their family, friends and the life that got used to...funny thing, that's exactly why I want to leave.
I want to see new places and have a new life away from everyone here, specially people like family who should support but instead they spend the whole day arguing with you and messing up with your head!
I found out there is no special place for me, I don't want to go to a specific place, I just want to get out, to go! JUST GO!
I want to go alone and live alone like forever...alone nobody can argue with you, mistreat you and bring you down!
I'm my best friend so I am always ok alone.
I don't have to many friends (do I have any?) or social life, I found it difficult to find someone who will not attack me or try to destroy me so I avoid people's company.
I am my best friend, I have to, I have to believe in me 'cause I am the only person who I really can count with, I'm the only one who understands me and lifts me up whenever someone or something brings me down.
All I can say is that I started loving myself for who I am and stopped hating myself for who I am not, and really, if we stop trying to make other people like us, if we do not like them, we don't care about their love and don't bother about them. It works very well for me because the more I know other people the more I like myself.
I can't wait for the day I'll free myself from this life, the only thing I regret is the life I could have lived but that didn't depend on me.
I'm heading out for a new life that's for sure and what is past has no space in my future.

Remember Rachel

Remembering Rachel Corrie – 10 years on.
Rachel, a 23 year old woman from Olympia, Washington, was crushed to death by an Israeli army bulldozer on the 16th March 2003, whilst protesting non-violently against the demolition of a Palestinian house by Israeli forces. She believed that putting in front of the bulldozer they would stop, but they didn't and just crushed her.
She was young, beautiful, she believed in humanity and peace. NEVER let her be forgotten. 
Rachel was a hero!

http://palsolidarity.org/2013/03/remembering-rachel-corrie-10-years-on/

The big fat lie

10 years ago a big fat lie justified war atrocities in Iraq that is now a devasted country...the story behind nine eleven remains untold, it's hard to believe that those 2 buildings could fall the way they did just by an aeroplane crash...it was clearly needed demolitions...we've all seen this is how a building is demolished....and this is just physics...besides what about the Building 7 that was not hitted by any aeroplane?
A big fat lie...and this is not new.

Nevertheless if you love your country and your freedom, happiness, rainbows, rockroll,puppy dogs, apple pie and your grandma you will never EVER express any doubts about any part of this story to anyone EVER! Got it? Now go live your ignorant life happily

I find parents (all parents, not just mine) the most boring,dictators, opressors, uncool and horrifying creatures in the whole wide world and there is NO freakin' way I'll become one!

Are you free?

definetelly not getting married and not having children and 

of course, not following fashion and not acting normal:) Yes,

 I'll be more free than most of the people :)

I'm sure that there is a lot of interesting people around there, but unfortunately they never crossed into my life 

I do believe in hate at first sight

I don't know about love at first sight but I do believe in hate at first sight...

Faith in Humanity? Restored [4]

A police officer rescues little ducks from the sewer. Every life is worth it and valuable.

A man jumps into the water just to save a little puppy from drowning, what a hero!

Some humans have humanity! Some humas rock!

More: faith-in-humanity

Good Riddance Pope

So today pope decided to resign...welll I just want to say to him this: Good Riddance!

If you practice what you preach...

HATE

I just want to leave this place, never ever come back again, never ever see any of this people again and forget my life

I don't want to be happy

Anyways I don't like to hang out with happy people and positive people...they are DAMN boring, they have ANY interesting converstation, they almost don't talk they just smile and live simply like they were flowers catching some sun, they seem to be simply stoned and took a trip to nowhere...moreover who can discuss the world with those people? they avoid at all cost to speak about politics, philosophy, economy...they don't read the news and certainly they do not care about History...hapy people make me sick, I don't want to be happy (even because it's impossible in my views) and I just simply do not see the point of building up a castle of lies to make you happy that's all. I've been meeting too much happy people or wanna be happy people in this life...they bore me and I do not want to be one of them, this is the main reason I want to be alone, you guys pretend this life is perfect while I focus on the shit all this is, I chosed walking on the dark side of life and I'm sure it will get me closer to the truth. Happy people rather a beautiful lie that makes them smile, I prefer a true that makes me cry and the only thing standing between me and them is reality.

keep your dreams just give me the money

..and when it's not a piece of paper it's just bits of numbers in a computer software...how can THIS rule over the world? how can people live for THIS? How can people kill for THIS?

Grab a gun kid 'cause a pistol is a lot of fun

My Chemical Romance (my favourite band, must tell) made at least two songs about violence with guns in USA specially guns used by teenagers. They criticize this aspect about american gun culture and they do it brilliantly with their songs. The most recent is the song "Gun" from "Conventional Weapons" edition:

 " As soon as we get your gun, 'cause a pistol is a lot of fun, it's just a kind of place we run, because the government wants your gun...well if I'm old enough to die for your mistakes, let's go, can we bleed enough to fill up what the engine takes? We don't know, but if you're watching up above, they're teaching me to kill, who's teaching me to love? now baby, isn't that crazy?"

The other song "Teenagers" is about the several murders that some teenagers made  in USA along the time, it's a a very well done criticism to teenager's behaviour in a Naion called ree where people sometimes don't get that they're freedom ends where the other's begin. Some teenagers that commited such crimes were usually outsiders and they killed they're class mates in a sick revenge: "You're never gonna fit in much, kid.

But if you're troubled and hurt,What you got under your shirt,Will make them pay for the things that they did"

"They're gonna clean up your looks, with all the lies in the books to make a citizen out of you.

because they sleep with a gun and keep an eye on you, son, So they can watch all the things you do.
Because the drugs never work,They're gonna give you a smirk,Cause they got methods to keeping you clean.
They're gonna rip off your head,Your aspirations to shreds,Another cog in the murder machine.
They said all teenagers scare the living shit out of me,They could care less as long as someone'll bleed.
So darken your clothes,Or strike a violent pose,Maybe they'll leave you alone, but not me.
The boys and girls in the cliqueThe awful names that they stick.You're never gonna fit in much, kid.
But if you're troubled and hurt,What you got under your shirt,Will make them pay for the things that they did"

Why my 2012 rocked out

In despite of everything I think my 2012 rocked out.
I can have erased so many people from my life and been erased by others, but I put on mind that we have to do things we like anyway even if we have no company. I can say 2012 I cut all my "friends" from my life, after all who ignores you can't be your friend at all.
But I travelled alone and met new people and it was all good, I went to a summer festival, I went to concerts, I did it on my own and it was awesome too.
Also I learnt 3 foreign languages: norwegian, danish and japanese.
I hope in 2013 to learn new things too and travel do other places, and if I have no one on reach I'll just pack up and go.
I'll let all the boring people stay trapped in 2012, and if I don't know new ones I don't want the old ones back, it's better to be alone that stick around fake "friends".
My 2012 was  a blast!