Well well well I knew this attack on "fake news" would certainly bring new hoaxes and false flags....and nothing but a dosis of fear mongering by the fear porn of main stream media....when you wake up from the matrix you really start wondering if everything tv tells you is truth....anyways seems to me the lack of realism and graphic pictures and videos of the last days supposed terrorist attacks that all this is just some hoaxes with media coverage to make you think what the agenda wants to make you believe....by planting fake terrorists attacks they are on their way to make the public support a direct invasion of Syria (because indirectly our governments sold weapons and trained Isis by the way) and of course they want us to blame Russia and Islam (to start a war you need a common enemy)....so the elite creates the problem, which causes a reaction (our anger) and they have the solution (more war)...wake up sleepy heads! It is the masonic moto "order out of chaos". Of course I am talking about the last supposed terror attack in Germany...you see, 2016 was just another year of staged hoaxes false flags psyops...we had the most blatant hoax ever of the Orlando Pulse fake shooting and the Nice attacks also with a bus, the Frankfurt shooting, many other more and now the "killing" of russian ambassador and now this shit! Seriously I had any evidence ZERO of this being true,zero blood, zero victim names, zero dead bodies, zero CCTV footage, this time they did not even bothered to hire crisis actors like with the Pulse shooting or use fake blood and dummies like in the low resolution photos of Nice.And why the hell does the terrorists always carry their passports and IDs around? sometimes it is so convenient that it seems like...they were planted there! Seriously what the world we live in that Game of Thrones and horror movies are more graphic and appear to be more realistic than this fake news covered by this fake media corporations (aka mainstream media)? no wonder they want to ban alternative media from the internet...people don't buy this shit anymore. Ridiculous! You tell me you believe this and other stories because you saw on TV or read in a newspaper? get a fucking clue!
If you don't believe that nowadays still lots of things we see on TV are simply hoaxes, staged events with media coverages or even false flags, see this video:´
Let me explain you: the real terrorists are USA, and NATO in general, so you don't have to fear muslims or someone from the Middle East, you have to fear USA and NATO forces, your own government that conspires against you and your disgusting fake media that is simply a propaganda outlet for the agenda of the big government. I'm not conservative or liberal or nothing, I am just pointing out a fact. Look yourself in mirror and face what your taxes are used for, your income is legally stolen from you every month for this murders...but because it is an foreign country you are too dumb even to point in the map of the world, it is not murder, it is colateral damage. USA is the country that perpetuated the most hideous crimes against humanity since WWII, followed by other NATO forces, countries from European Union (UK, France, Germany...) and of course Israel...they definitely should go to court and be judged for crimes against humanity. And by the way when you say you support your god damn troops it makes me sick! Wars are not needed, they are engineered by politicians who constructed a common enemie with the help of media propaganda and sometimes a false flag attack or two to give you the impression you must fight back your supposed enemie...being supportive of troops means you support wars and murder and I got absolutely no fucking respect for you and your fucking stupid soldiers.
So here we go again, one of the main puppet/masters of the elite, the Pope, is very concerned about the so called "fake" media is exposing the pedophile elite, which means, his pedo friends that he protects while seem to care about children...so he calls this independent investigation as a sin! Great! (read: http://thehill.com/blogs/blog-briefing-room/news/309179-pope-francis-its-a-sin-to-spread-fake-news-focus-on-scandals). Now remember when the media lied to us about 9/11 (some even believe the "official" story nowadays...sad)...or let's say when main stream media told us lies to sell us wars like the one in Iraq that supposdely, had weapons of mass destruction...well then, they were never found, thousands of people were killed, a country destroyed...nothing happened to the liar media that is nothing but a propaganda outlet of governments. Now that less and less people believe in main stream media they want to attack independent and alternative media and only stuff the main stream media says must be called truth? It is evident, the pedo elite don't want us to expose them so they want to end fake (aka alternative) news so they can still mind control us and program us to accept the reality they want us to believe in. But one thing I know, when the pope assumes pedophilia at the highest levels don't exist, move along, nothing to see here after years and years of the catholic church defending priests against the henious crimes of abuse of children ..... THEN YOU GOD DAMN KNOW IT'S REAL! Watch what people do, or let happen...this guy is not a saint, far from it, he is part of the problem.
Regarding to the last weird performance of the musician Kanye West where he ranted about the most different things, but speacilly about media manipulation and fake news being then hospitalized in a psychiatric hospital because he "went crazy" (see by yourself: http://worldtruth.tv/kanye-west-kidnapped-placed-in-mental-hospital-exposing-illuminati/):this is not new, keeps happening when the celebrities' mind control program breaks down and they have to be hosptalized in psychiatric hospitals and given drugs to reprogram them, also known as rehab, when they have a mind control malfunction glitch like for example what happened to Britney Spears, then media will try to make them look crazy and descredit them when they were trying to communicate something to us: that they are prisioners of Hollywood owners that chose what they are and what they must say or not, you can call this owners Illuminati or whatever you want, but in fact, artistic freedom in mainstream areas is stricted, and you only sell if you are a sell-out. When Prince and Michael Jackson started talking weird things and trying to break free from their record agencies, they died from prescription drugs...it is a coincidence? guess not! This people aren't crazy they are trying to break free.
Pizzagate will be a never ending investigation, we will not be silenced even if facebook and google block independent activists and researchers and hackers, we can make this information go viral even with your censor and media trying to debunk paedophilia rings controlled by the elite, instead of actually block and ban peaedophiles from the webb and Isis tweets. The elite is the only one with power to buy mainstream media into protect their image, don't go to courts using corrupt lawyers and judges that make a way out the corrupt laws and stop the police investigation. You need guts to know about this sick perversions, but don't turn your back away from it just because you realize how the world is sick, because we need your atention and outrage and disgust and force to stop this sick elite from molesting, torturing, raping and killing kids. We, the people have to do this, not the corrupt politicians, journalists, judges or the police because they obbey the system, WE HAVE, we will!If you care about children and hate this sick people spread this investigation, make it go viral, and do all you can to help any kid. This is one of my new purposes in life, help this kids and stop this sick pedo pervs, hope you are with me....remember there are more of us than more of them, and they are scared to death of our awakenning. A good pedo is a dead pedo!This monsters have no right to live, even less being in power of nations, courts, etc, etc and try to control us, the elite does not deserve any obedience or respect! We are not afraid!
seriously?? I just can´t believe...my mind gets me twisted all the time...just after knowing about the pizzagate scandal and that ping pong restaurant that serves pizzas and has ping pongs and a huge white cave what happens? I am invited to an integration night at a mormon church (I have mormon friends, I don't want to be one, just went there to talk to them and hang out) , which consisted in a party, in the cave of the church, really big and with white walls, with ping pong tables, and the elder mormons served us pizza...I am just super overwhelmed by this kind of stuff that happens in my life, I literally keep attracting stuff I think...at least this party was normal, I don´t know, I left earlier whatever! WEIRD!!!
Ok people, I am super disgusted and can't sleep at night, and I really need to tell someone about this. You don't hear it in mainstream media, but wikileaks hacked e-mails from Hillary Clinton and her staff disclosed a pedophilic ring, in which her chairman John Podesta is very important. So apparently pizza is a name code pedophiles use to call little girls, and this John Podesta guy talked in pedophilic code lots of times with other supposed pedophiles. So I read some e-mails of this disgusting guy going to a spirit cooking at a private home done by the satanic artistis Marina Abramovic or something like this and also something about pizza and I was clueless, but now this is starting to make sense. I have heard from a lot of "conspiracy" theories researches and real witnesses, most people in power are sick pedophilic satanists, but never researched too much about that. So if this information in this videos and all this sites is true 100% ,there is a a restaurant called Comet Ping Pong in Washington DC, USA, where they serve pizzas, it is also a bar and they give parties, in which all ages are welcomed (weird...). Some owners and visitors of this creepy place have accounts on twitter and instagram where this pictures were leaked, and if they are real, it is really really disturbing all this obcession with kids and babies, the fact they have coffins in basements and holes on the ground, and a crazy room in a cave some comments on that picture say "so much fun", "kill room"...and then this nasty ugly video with a creepy performer making pedophilic "jokes" I am afraid this even might be something that happened! The fact that Hillary Clinton, Barack Obama and some other elite people go in this pizza restaurant...after all, what can be so important about a pizza place? I am really disturbed and confused, you can watch the videoshttps://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Z4OP--ZXOjc on youtube, made by incredible ordinary researchers that are trying to wake people up to this nasty and ugly world, controlled and ruled by psycopaths. I'm not going to post the videos here because it is awful, and I don't want my blogue to have this kind of content, but neverthless I had to make a way to reach my audience and tell them about this super strange thing, so I saw this documentaries: #PizzaGate: what we know so far: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Dxc_P-8yeEY&sns=fb https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Gi6ryNOg8z0 https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=yiLNkIiyKuU More: A site saying this is a true story:http://stateofthenation2012.com/?p=55555 http://stateofthenation2012.com/?p=56984 New York Times saying it is a fake new,:http://www.nytimes.com/2016/11/21/technology/fact-check-this-pizzeria-is-not-a-child-trafficking-site.html?_r=0 Well let me tell you something, I really wish this story was fake, but I need more than a newspaper saying "yeh it is fake", without explaining this facts and why this people speak in weird pedo codes and put weird pictures on their instagarms and pedo friendly logos on their pizzas restaurants...do this main stream morons didn't get this right already????WE NEED MORE THAN YOU SAYING TO US SOME INDEPENDENT RESEARCH SPREAD ON THE INTERNET IS FAKE JUST BECAUSE...OH YOU SAID IT IS FAKE! Without even investigate this instagram weird people and their weird photos, specially with kids???Without talking about the pedo codes on the e-mails leaked by wikileaks??? We know this stuff now! No turning back, mainstream media is going down, we don't trust you anymore and even if you push to censor us or shut us down putting Mark Zuckerberg and other techonology kings to censor what you call fake news? Who decides what is true or false? YOU!? I guess not! Facts speak louder than your words nobody listens to anymore, you mainstream are bought and corrupt and protect the elite, but you can't no longer program us or distort reality, we are aware and we will fix this, because we will no longer stay silent and consume your false reality! We have minds of our own and endless people fighting for truth inside and outside the internet, we will defeat you sooner or later, there are more of us than you, and we are no longer afraid! And there is many many more, interesting research material, but I got sick enough from it and I really wish I could eliminate this "people", because in my views pedophiles have no right to live! Listen, you will not hear this from the main stream media, so research for yourself, read the wikileaks leaked e-mails, no one in power ever said it was false, because they were hacked, all you get from this in power people is silence....you go ahead and say I must be positive and stop researching things like this, and pretend the world is beautiful and all people are good, because that makes you feel happy...being an ignorant of the reality! I can't be happy knowing in this world kids ard being victimized and taken to pedophile rings for sick adults' entertainment that torture, rape them and even murder them, and you get mad at me and other truthers because we are telling you the truth!??This is the kind of people that rule nations and banks, this is our sick elite, if NSA used surveillance to spot and arrest pedophiles they would do a good thing, but they can't, because people in power are pedophiles and they are protected! This people are sick, we must expose them and make justice even if it has to be by our hands, acknowledge truth, expose, act. We are more and more each days, we know what the elite does and we will not tolerate to be ruled by sick pervs like them anymore, no matter how much mainstream media protects you, and you try to label truthers investigations as fake news and shut us down...we are waking up, you will not control us anymore, we have the power! NWO is going down! Everybody should know about this stuff...pedophilia is real and exists specially in the elite members, they are sometimes even knighted by the Queen of England (like that creep the Savile!), they are then protected by their own corrupt laws, courts, and media, so we apparently can't do anything to stop it...unless we act by our own forces. Pedophilles do not deserve to live, seriously I would kill some if I had the chance and believe I would do the world a huge huge favour! We must save this kids!
Not sure if life is passing me by or trying to run me over but one thing is for sure, I am one year closer to death. But they say it is bettter to have one foot closer to death than both of them. So I want to thank of everyone that came to my life and made it feel less miserable and got drunk with me, because misery always loves company, and it drives me insane getting this fucking old,and seeing more and more younger people than me everywhere year after year, after year. I hate it! I bloody hate it!Anyways haappy birthday to me, I am surprised how I even lived this long.If you really think the way it is, all of us are basically serving life sentences. A depressive meme for a depressive day and a depressive life. Cheers!
Learn:when people have doubts whether spending time with you or not, bullshiting you about not knowing how they really feel, like they are so emotionally stupid and not even can understand themselves (and expect you to do?), when they make excuses to see you instead of making efforts, when they always expect you to start conversations first and keep the conversation dull and monosylabic, when they don't clearly reject you and not completely accept you because their feelings and thoughts are confused and they need to find themselves, so they say, it means they are not into you, giving you sort o false hopes is their game in order to keep you in the reserve and take you out of the shelve when they are bored or need you...this behaviour means you are not their priority but solely one of their options 2,3,4,5, wtv to lift their ego up. When you feel right with someone there is not such things as confusion, and pride games, because your heart is certain. Don't fall for players and assholes, they'll drain all your energy and make you waste your most beautiful emotions until you become numb not able to feel anything as great as it again because you literally wasted your most powerful energy in vain.
I admit it, I am an envious person, and sometimes I even feel good about other's misery so I can feel a little better with my own misery...but envy is such a self destruction feeling...everytime I feel envy I feel like I am consumed by it, and in fact it makes me feel even worse about me...it's one of the most nasty feelings ever.
I try to fight this a lot of times, but usually it overcomes me...I don't know I think I should try to be better and accomplish more things so that other person's success doesn't make me feel bad, or medidate or help others, like doing volunteer.
This is a long and old battle in my thoughts and feelings, two things that I find very hard to control...but whenever someone lives my dreams I just try to think, that's not my life, not my journey, not my experiences, and what other people did, felt or lived can be different for me, because we are different and I will have my own experiences when my time will come. What is meant to be in my life will be meant to be, if it will never comes, it wasn't meant to and if it comes and leaves I will have to accept this turn of events. I will have my own experiences and live my life, so I try to let go of comparing with other people and believe myself and work to get my goals.
Envy trully is, one of the worst feelings ever, and I really want to let it go away from my life, so I can be in peace with my life.
Since you went away without even saying goodbye, almost an year ago, long time no see, no talk, no nothing, I must tell you, if by any means you actually could and would read and/or know this, I've manage to live as if I have never met you, but I can't, you still the first person I think about when I wake up, and the last when I fall asleep, the one I day dream all day, it's like you became my favourite worst nightmare, awake or asleep, anywhere I go or anywhere I am, with whoever I am with, I can't help feeling I wish you were there, and you were one of this persons, I remember all the places we have been and it makes me feel depressed when I pass by them, I also think about all those places you have been, reminiscing in a past that keeps going backwards, like looking for the presence of your ghost lingering around. I have this feelings but you never mind that, because you never cared and never wanted to, and now even if you wanted to, you won't because it is not even possible. So all this things I live and feelings I have keep adding up, and up, and up, and it will lead nowhere, because you gave me no other choice than to mourn you while we both are still alive, still I know, you are alive, somewhere out there in the world, and honestly this thought make me feel confortable because your existence made the world a less awful place, you still my favourite thing in the Universe.
So many times I think, what would you be doing now, how are you, even wonder if I ever cross your mind. But I know this questions will remain unanswered, still I can't consume my mind and energy as much as I do with thoughts of you, imagining all the possible lives we could have lived or will live somehow in the future, because after almost 2 years I can't escape the ghost of you, I can't let you go.
All my friends think I am healed, when I say I don't feel anything for you and it's like you never existed in my life, that you, as they warned me about, were not worth caring or chasing or to drown myself in so much pain thinking about all the ifs and if nots.
So I tried to move on with life and give somebody else a chance to see in me, what you never did, some seemed interested but I kept them away, I knew that was not what I was looking for...and now I think I found someone who actually enjoyes spending time with me, go out with me, has initiative to talk to me and is trying to be the person you never were...and you know what I feel about this? I feel sad and depressed for being with that person, because when I open my eyes I don't see you, because it's not you. Sometimes I even feel disgusted with myself, but truth is after you I never felt anything for anyone, I am emotionally numb and trying to find you in other persons...but I know I will never find you, because you are nowhere else any near to be found, and once you feel the fire you don't care about little sparks. So I come home, daydream about you again, and sleep with the clothes you left behind (it makes me feel you presence somehow lingers here) and cry myself to sleep, because I still can't escape the ghost of you, because I can't get rid of this thoughts, and this feelings, and this memories.
I dreamt about you 25 years before I met you, and you were even better than in my dreams, they say love is just around the corner and it was just as impredictable as that that I found you, it is a clichet to say but it was love at first sight and I felt we have met before since ever, like you were meant to be there at that time and place, like a cosmic conspiracie alignment. And if meeting you was my best blessing ever, loving you was, is, and afraid will be my endless curse.
I am sure you were the YOU I have always longing to meet in the past, the one I was afraid and also excited to meet, the one I wanted to avoid and couldn't,the one I wished for, the one I was trying to find, but I can't explain to you or anyone what it feels like, and even if I could you wouldn't understand, because you never felt the same way, you can never read my emotions and know the depths of my sorrow, and what I hate even more is that you are not even responsible to any of this, you can never blame someone for don't love you back, but it is sad indeed loving someone like that being was magic, and be treated as ordinary. Loving you is, was and will be an impossible quest to come true, but I never felt and meant anything more genuine for anything or anyone, this has a bit of lunacy and self destruction in it and maybe that's why I keep holding on to it, like I inflict this pain on myself because I hate me, and hate me even more for you not to to love me, or for me not being able to get rid of this prison of emotions that is trapping my soul.
I hate that I love you.
"Now all my thoughts and all my feelings are all mixed Always missing people that I shouldn't be missing Sometimes you gotta burn some bridges just to create some distance I know that I control my thoughts and I should stop reminiscing When love and trust are gone I guess this is moving on"
You're like a good grief, and still, I can't escape the ghost of you.
Feelings that everyone’s livin,’ To a different kinda wall. I feel nano sense skipping, Tangled up in my own thoughts. Why must these ‘specials’, have feelings, Why must I live in inside. I wrestle with my raging ailing, Lately, I have lost my fire.
Adults: boring families, their life savings, mortgages to banks, their fucking kids and grandkids, their confort marriages and predictable weddings, their birth control prescriptions, their abortions, their x rated videos, their daily health drugs, their cancers, their stupid repeatitive jobs, their taxes, their retirement plans, their stupid money that somehow entitles them dignity....everyone is living the same stupid life as everyone because they not even have imagination for more. Adults always pretend to be responsible and emotionally stable when they simply are brooken and dead inside. No you fucking don't know better, your life was, is and will end up being a sad joke
15 years ago the US government did one of the most outrageous attacks against their own people under the pretext of starting an endless war on terror and expand their power and control worldwide under their empirialistic war machine with support of main stream media propaganda and brainless sheep like you that buy any shit. 9 11 was an inside job wether you want to admit it or not and wether or not the archives and investigation is classified,inconclusive and closed. According to physics the math just don't add up:jet fuel can't burn steal and two planes can't knock down 3 buildings,a building built fire proof can't fall down in seconds with the aceleration of gravity. And offended you are,a fuck I don't give. Grow up! http://anonhq.com/european-scientific-journal-concludes-911-was-a-controlled-demolition/ http://www.europhysicsnews.org/articles/epn/pdf/2016/04/epn2016-47-4.pdf http://thefreethoughtproject.com/physics-study-911-controlled-demolition/
First they ignore you, then they laught at you and hate you, then they fight you and then you win. I know it was a week ago still Portugal won the Euro 2016, but why should I shut up with this ? Bare in mind mon chérs we will be euro champions for the next 4 years!!! So get used to. Few teams will have the oportunity to win something this huge and even less countries as well, I guess, some of them will never win anything, others won the Euro 20 years ago and others (like the so called great England) never won an Euro. It was a lot of fun during june and july watching the games with other thousands of portuguese people and my friends and honestly I cannot even believe we won. I know it is just football but still it mixes with a lot of emotions and I am incredibly grateful of having the experience of seeing the portuguese team win the Euro in my lifetime, I also wished it to be true, but never believed it was possible. But for me all this was much more than footbal games, it taught me and showed me a very important thing, because I never really believed my team passed even the first eliminatory when we didn't win (neither lose) or impress, and then game after game I always had the feeling this would be probably the last game, I felt and thought all of this until Eder(the guy that spent more time in the bench and nobody believed in and laughed about and was even criticized by the critics for being selected to play in the national portuguese team for the Euro= scored at the final game close to the very end, because I am not confident and am always expecting to lose or be disappointed in the end so I start preparing myself for the worse so I don't feel even worse when things go in a way against what I wanted or wished for), but they showed me that even if everyone is against you and tries to make you feel bad (like the media that criticized Portugal and said we shoudn't win, calling us disgusting, or be in Euro, or as a country be in Europe or even fans from other countries that feel disgusted and jealous that we won, and all that envy and discredit and the players that kickedCristiano Ronaldo out so it would be easier for them to run us over, and the french players who refused the silver medals, because they are too good for that, and the french fans that made a petition to repeat the Euro because they don't accept they lost and so on and so forth, just for not to mention the silence of my envious foreigner "friends"), when everyone disbelieves you but it is something you wish dearly from the bottom of your heart, you get the courage and will to pursue your dreams and make it come true, don't matter who tells you that it is impossible, you dream too big, or you can't do it...foccus on your plans, work hard, believe yourself, make it come true. Had also enough of foreigner people always depicting us as the losers, the small country guys, we proved otherwise and I hope from now on the portuguese people feel the same about themselves and Portugal, in any fields, we have our own value, we can do anything and there is not such a thing as dreaming too big for who gave new worlds to world. This was also a lesson for my life: believe yourself, work for your dreams, ignore the haters and people who want to see you lose and defeated...everything is possible when you believe. From now on I do believe in ALL of my dreams. So thank you so much for this...we are the champions, my friends. And next time someone asks me where I am from, I will be even more proud of saying: I am from Portugal!
