terça-feira, 21 de dezembro de 2010

30 seconds to Mars in Portugal December 2010

I forgot to post it before, but 16th December at Lisbon I went to see for the 3rd time one of my favourite bands on Earth: 30 seconds to Mars, The Hurricaine Tour. This time there were about 18 million people in the concert, amazing because in the two concerts in Portugal in 2008 at the first one theer were 3 million people and as 30STM received  a lot of fans' request to come back soon becase they hadn't the chance o see them (the concert was in a small Coliseum) they came back after the European Tour (which ended at Portugal a few months before they come back) and to the Atlantic Pavilion there were like 5 million people...and this time there were 18 million, it means: Sold Out!
The have a new C.D: This is War which is very good actually, very progressive rocka nd new wave punk, it has amazing songs such as: Closer to the Edge, 100 suns, The Night of the Hunter, This is War and A Call to Arms (you gotta listen if you didn't yet).
I really enjoid the concert although the 1st one was my favourite (the 2nd album: A Beautiful Lie stills being my favourite although this new album is absolutelly great too), the acoustic of big pavilions destroyes part of the musical quality and Jared's voice was a bit husky and nasal because of the wearing tour, he painted his hair blue (and he's so handsome with black hair) but the high point was his interaction with the public: hw called fans to the stage, talked with us, and promised they will be back (I regret the others members of the band hadn't speak because to me a band it's not a vocal leader and it doesn't matter if he's a hollywood star LOL).
Next time 30 seconds to Mars will be in portugal I will be there too.
My favourite quotation of them is in the song 100 suns:
"I believe in nothing, not the end and not the start
I believe in nothing, not the earth and not the stars
I believe in nothing, not the day and not the dark
I believe in nothing but the beating of our hearts
I believe in nothing one hundred suns until we part
I believe in nothing not in sin and, not in god
I believe in nothing, not in peace and not in war
I believe in nothing but the truth of who we are"

The Social Network

Today I went to the cinema and finnally saw the movie: "The Social Network", it's about the most popular social network in internet: Facebook. Well I really liked it, it corresponded to my expectations and I really identify myself with the protagonist (Mark Zuckerberg who invented facebook): he can make girls hating him or run away from him, I do the same with boys, I usually say things people don't like to hear although it's true...they say that the point it's not to say or not my opinion but the way I express myself, I won't change this about me because to me being frontal it's a quality, some people called Mark in the movie: cretin because he seems to be so empty about feelings, he'll do anything to reach what he wants and don't let anyone take the shit out of him, the trick for that is being suspicious about everyone who surrounds you...specially that persons who smile at you the most: today they smile, tomorrow they will betray you, their honesty is like a back that hides a knife, trust me. What I think is that people don't understand that the fact of someone hides his emotions (to protect himself to get hurt) it doesn't mean he hasn't emotions!
In this case is Mark that actually betray his only friend putting him out of the project, but he never really trust the others who just want take advantage from him. Other thing about Mark and me is the thirst of revenge, never stop until the other person feel as bad as they made us feel, the other thing that it's similar: we both hate hugs. Mostly differences: I really hate computers, I don't know how to program anything,  Mark really wants to get envolved in the social thing and get in the clubs of the popular ones, well I really don't care about that, I really don't like that thing of being popular I think it's just stupid I like to spend most part of my time alone without being bored, the other thing is that I really don't want to be rich.
Back to facebook, in six years it has 500 millions of users and it's always movin' up (if facebook was a country it would be the 3rd most populous of the world), Mark Zuckerberg is the the newest billionaire ever (25 years old) and  facebook worths 25 billion dollars!!! From day to night Mark went from hacker to revolutionary entrepreneur.
It's so ironic that who put 500 millions of people together at the same time couldn't relate normally with the people who surrounded him and the foundations that he created  were based on realtionships that he destroeyd.
To me this movie is about of a beautiful mind, a visionary who changed the world: socially, technologically...a genius of this Age who protected his ideia until the ultimate consequences but at the same time I think this is a a portrait of a tragedy: he lost some important friends to him in order to reach the fortune, the fame, the profit (even betray his only friend), in the end of the movie Mark seems to be sentenced to an empty life clicking on the refresh button of his laptop waiting for a human relationship that will never come (as some of us, who really have 300 freinds or even more? or even less?You may have added people in facebook but wherever you see them you and that person just pretend they don't know each other...although you got access to their privacy in the social page! It's typical nowadays we talk more to people through internet than face to face, for example I have friends that I don't see for months, they don't really seem to be interesting in hanging out with me because they refuse my invitations (of course I quit asking) but they keep saying how much they miss me... I really think it's such a loser thing you try (in vain of course) to have friends only through internet, and it's ridiculous you think you can maintain a friendship doing that! After all what you're doing is talking through a damn machine you're not being human, those relationships won't be human too and so they won't be genuine).

domingo, 12 de dezembro de 2010

You're not happy you're blind

You're not happy, you're blind as the Happy Prince was. He lived his entire life closed in a castle with plenty life conditions: gold, jewels, clothes, luxuries, food...everything seemed to be so perfect in that castle that he never wanted to go outside...but when he died they made a magnificent statue of him made with gold and jewels and put it into the centre of a city, now he could see everything, now he could see the reality...it was not perfect, happy and beatutiful as he thought when he was alive and lived inside the castle walls. There were people starving, passed out cold, there were people suffering, there were people crying, there were injustices,  everything looked awful...the Happy Prince saw the reality...it was not perfect, it was not beautiful, it was not happy...
So with the help of swallow he helps the people in need, the swallow takes away his jewels and give it to the people, as they stay together and time goes by the little swallow and the Prince fall in love and want to continue help the people, but time runs out and the summer is over, the swallow doesn't migrate with the other birds to stay with the prince and dies with him.
I love this story, it really is about how I see the world, people usually call me pessimistic but what I think is that the world is terrible and it is just stupid you try to blind yourself and avoid the truth. Just don't run away from the truth, try to change the reality for better.

sábado, 11 de dezembro de 2010

Mr Nobody

"There comes a time in life where everything seems narrow. Choices have been made. I can only continue on. I’ve done everything to reach this point and now that I’m here, I’m fucking bored. The hardest thing is knowing whether I’m still alive." Mr Nobody

I'm about to go to my 3rd show of one of my favourite bands in the world next thursday: 30 Seconds to Mars. I just love them as a band and I started watching the movies in wich Jared Leto (the vocalist) played a role (he is an actor too), and I was very surprised to see the quality of his performance as an actor!
The films I saw where he participated is: Requeim for a Dream, Chapter 27, Alexander the Great, Lord of War, Panic Room and  his most recent movie: Mr Nobody (2008), there is a few information about that movie, I never heard about that before but once I saw it I just loved it!It's already one of my favourite movies ever and I recommend you to watch it.
The story is about a boy, teenager, man that doesn't exist called Nemo Nobody, the angels forgot to erase his memory before he has born and so he had the power to control time: go back and  and forth it , erase it, modify it and experience multiple realities. Whenever he has to choose between two important hypotheses he usually stays indecisive, and if he regerets his option he goes back in past and do otherwise he did.
Well during his lifetime he had three different experiences, three different lifes and at the end it all mixed up, it was quite confusing but the movie has a bit of science. It was about time, go back and forth it, how the universe, time and space started and over, what happen before, what will happen after?
So we all are quite sure it all started with the Big Bang, that big cosmic explosion that created everything that exists including space and time, before that episode nothing existed. The scientists (Hubble for instance) proved that the Universe is expanding the doubt is if the Universe will continuosly to expand and lose energy or will reach the limit of  expansion and end in a Big Crunch, the physical phenomenon that will make the whole Universe return to the small ball of fire that created everything?
Well at the movie: Mr Nobody, the Universe "ends" as a Big Crunch and so the time goes back and everything that people lived and happened in the Universe happens again but from back to front because there is a shift towards the entropy.  I really was astonished when I saw Mr Nobody dying and then live again doing everything again but from the last moment to the first.
At certain moment in the film someone asks the 120 old Mr Nobody if he believes in life before death and he answers him: "how can you be sure to be alive?". Think about it, how can you be so sure that you are alive and everything surrounding you is real? one day this will all be over and after all it's like it never ever happened.
Basically this movie is about how a simple choice can change our lives forever, and how it could be different if we choosed diferently. It was a great moving, really, one of the best I have ever seen!

sharp rise of fees in english's universities and the problem of the European crisis

I heard the news that said that the english government decided to raise to triple the fees that the students pay to study in England and cut on the scholarships.  This decision had to be maid, said the politicians, because austerity measures are accurate to solve the problem of the economic and financial crisis.  It's so ironically funny that the argument of crisis is always used to justify everything the politicians decide to do against their earlier promises and electoral programs that made reach the power of governance...now their voters (young people mostly) see that it was all just a lie, it seems that it doesn't matter as long as you try to know about policy and try to vote consciously because they say this and tomorrow they'll do otherwise. How can governors make people vote right if they just don't give them reasons to believe them anymore?
Of course there is a crisis going on in Europe, but the world wide governments only decide to cut in the rights of citizens, rights that everyone deserve and fought for it, including the right of a fair and free education! I'm not tottally against to pay something to be in college as long it's not too much to be unsupportable for everyone! But what the english government did was to transform the higher education and the access to study in universities into a business, and the students into clients! They want students to pay three more times than they paid before! They paid 3000 pounds before and in the year 2012/2013 the have to pay 9000 pounds per year (approximately 10 000 euros!!!), it's way to high! And students in university usually don't have the time to work and study at the same time, and if they work they will receive the minimum wage or less missing work conditions (for example in some countries in Europe it was made a law to facilitate dismissal of employees by employers and the salaries of civil servants won't be raised anymore...and this all is happening while banking capitalist lead their banks to bankruptcy and it's the money of the citizens that is used to plug the holes, this is all happening in a continet where the luxury hotels are increasing and the luxury brands are being more and more purchased, at least when I'm going down on the street I see a lots of expensive cars, and on the TV I heard the traders of brand name clothing stores and other goumet products saying that they felt no shortfalls in sales...but I see to even more beggars on the street, more and more robberies..and most of misery I believe we don't see because unlike the luxury that everyone wants to show and dash when it comes to misery and poverty almost everyone wants to hide it). So what's goin on afetr all? Can't you see that? The number of rich people is raising and the number of poors too! This society has becoming increasingly unequal and more and more unfair! The crisis it's always the same who pay for it: the poorest ones, the honest ones, the workers with their rights taken! What about the capitalist employers? they have more and more power, more and more money exploring their workers and they count with the help of  corrupt and capitalist governments!!!
But going back to the fees in England, what this measure really ? it means that only if you have rich parents or you work to the bone having more than a job (and no time for study) or even if you borrow money from a bank and spend years after graduation trying to pay what you own to the bank more the extras interests they require as time goes passing by... in other words Universities will be for the elite society!!!
And this law is so so stupid that the money the English government borrow to students through the Tuition fees Loan will increase the loan rates year by year! And it's so stupid that who was born or lived in England for more than 3 years and wants to go to Scotland (where it is free) or to Wales (where students pay 3000 pounds per year) will continue to pay the 9000 punds per year!!! This is so stupid I cannot even belive it's true! Well I live in Portugal and the higher fees students pay to study in a public university per year is 1000 euros, one tenth of what english students will pay! And there are often protests of students against the fees, they are continuously trying to eradicate fees!! If the politicians in Portugal try to do such a thing here I'm quite sure they couldn't do that because we wouldn't let them do that...a Revolution would happen I'm quite sure. Maybe it's what England needs! Of course we need cuts but where to start? Have you ever considered to get rid of the Royal Family?
Basically they are parasites of society and squander the people's money in order to live luxuriously (like Kings and Queens of course), they are the only people who don't pay taxes (well they are the taxes!), they don't work, don't have any importance in policies of state, the only thing they have to to is to avoid scandals (but English Royal family not even can do that!) they always have to act politely and say things that were thought and written before for somebody else probably, they have to hide their emotions and opinions, they are just figures of state that represent England and full the english tabloids! And they cost money! Lots of money! Shouldn't the government cut in some of their privileges? you could try to sell the private jet, the jewels (probably they have blood diamonds too), the Rolls Royce, the Louis Vuitton clothes they ony wear once...or could they have a job like everyone else and do something profit to their country!? After all what did they do to deserve living like that? nothing! They descend from other kings and queens okay that's nice for them, but why do the crown have to exploit the crowd?
For example, Denmark, they have the oldest Royal family in the world, one million years in the crown, and dannish people love to have a Royal family and the english too, but look in Denmark students in university don't pay anything! And England is said to be one of the most developed countries in Europe and what happens? they triple the fees!
Concluding, the english Royal family: Prince Charles and his adorable wife Camila Parker Bowles were completely shocked when students cracked window of their Rolls Royce and England is shocked too.
The only thing I have to say to that youth is: continue fighting for your rights, what England needs is a Revolution! Never stop fighting, never think it is useless to protest, never shut up, never give up!

quinta-feira, 9 de dezembro de 2010


It was 30 years ago in the fateful day of 8- December-1980 when John Lennon an icon for the hippie youth and all the pacifist was brutally murdered. Even not being present on Earth with us anymore he will never be forgotten, because he did wonderfull things to inspire humanity being better...there's nothing more we can do beside follow his message of peace, I wish he was alive...but as it's not possible at least let me IMAGINE...
Imagine  (John Lennon):

Imagine there's no heaven
It's easy if you try
No hell below us
Above us only sky

Imagine all the people
Living for today

Imagine there's no countries
It isn't hard to do
Nothing to kill or die for
And no religion too

Imagine all the people
Living life in peace

You may say, I'm a dreamer
But I'm not the only one
I hope some day you'll join us
And the world will be as one

Imagine no possessions
I wonder if you can
No need for greed or hunger
A Brotherhood of man

Imagine all the people
Sharing all the world

You may say, I'm a dreamer
But I'm not the only one
I hope some day you'll join us

And the world will be as one

John Lennon - Imagine

Imagine there's no heaven
It's easy if you try
No hell below us
Above us only sky

Imagine all the people
Living for today

Imagine there's no countries
It isn't hard to do
Nothing to kill or die for
And no religion too

Imagine all the people
Living life in peace

You may say, I'm a dreamer
But I'm not the only one
I hope some day you'll join us
And the world will be as one

Imagine no possessions
I wonder if you can
No need for greed or hunger
A Brotherhood of man

Imagine all the people
Sharing all the world

You may say, I'm a dreamer
But I'm not the only one
I hope some day you'll join us
And the world will live as one

my letter to Santa Claus

Dear Santa!
This Christmass I will ask you for something new: I don't want trendy clothes, random books I never got the time to read, chocolates I should not eat or pc games I don't play anymore 'cause I learnt to live only the real life (for God sake!), I really don't want any material things you could easily give me and I refuse myself to accept or give to somebody else.
For this christmass I just want friends, maybe they exist and surround me everytime but I just can't see them, everyone look so strange and away from me. I would like you to help me out with this.
And I know it's rude not accepting the gifts that it's offered to us but I'm warning you that the old boring version of friend I don't wana have it and I will return all of them before the warranty expires.
Just help me how to find out people who I can share good moments and deserve my friendship, 'cause I won't be broken again.
With love:  Celta

sexta-feira, 3 de dezembro de 2010

Nothing to kill or die for, and no religion too

I believe in nothing and I'm tired of people boring me me up trying to convince me to their religion...is this the end of the world?is this the apocalypse? bring on the champagne 'cause I'm already celebrating it. Should I care too much for the afterlife? should I be obcessed with eternal life? should I want eternal life? should I want to be save? should I be scared of the revenge of that merciful God? I don't think so! One life is enough I think it will be very boring to live forever in this Earth or the other one...living forever just doesn't make sense. I don't care about when I'm gone I live here in the present, I don't think I should do good deeds so I can go to heaven or be ressurected from the dead to live in the new paradise that you call the new Earth...I'm not selfish or greedy, I'm not honest and kind so I can get any rewards, and all that obcessed people so blind thinking they're owning the truth trying to convince they actually are saying the truth, that their religion is the right one...and you hear from the other one who has a different religion and he says: "no this is the right one!", you got infinite truths and everyone wants to make you belive in their truth! what about your truth? what do your mind say to you? at least my mind tells me that I can belive in God even if I don't have any religion or belonging to any sect, I can be spiritual and nonreligious...after all religion is something created by humans! The religious books were writteh by humans! And after all has God created us or have we created God ?My mind says me too that I really shouldn't think we are the greatest creation in the Universe...compared to the Universe we're nothing! If we disappear the Universe will not notice, we're minimal, a second or even less in the clock of the Universe...we mean nothing and we don't do anything right we just keep destroying everything we can in order to have profit, my mind says me too that I will never ever have any religion again because I think it's a source of conflicts and stupid wars between nations...people are so obcessed living before the death that they don't enjoy they're true life, the only life they could be 100% sure that they have...some people that are radical islamits really think that exploding themselves and killing other people that don't have the same religion as them or don't do what they think they should although being muslims they really can go heaven and God is proud of them! Everything I've ever read about God is so tenebrous and scary that I think that they don't love God they just fear him! But they say that God is infinitely kind, perfect, friendly...but this God seems to be wicked, resentful, mad, vengeful...
What I think too is that if there is any (good) God around he took a vacation or he forgot us or even he doesn't care for us...because he really don't seem to be present in anything, he just let inocent people die specially that poor people that die from natural disasters, and if God is omnipotent and omnipresent he could save them! A good person could give everything to help or save the other including give someone his life, but God if he's seeing everything he just stand still doing nothing...
Some people say it's the course humanity chosed: to live without God and all this disasters, all this horrible life is a consequence of we let him go because we didn't obey him...but still there are so many people follow him and try to live in tune with God and it's exactly that people who suffers the most! He's not even there for his followers? Now maybe I can understand! They don't have any choice than keep hope alive thinking life could be better afterlife...
Well this is all I can say, I don't fear death and our death will mean nothing for the Universe, who knows there can be trillions of civilations out there, the space is infinite within our reach, if our existence is a briefly moment in the Earth's existance what about us in the Universe???
All can say too is that we should treat the Earth with respect and all the living forms on Earth including ourselves, we should understand how stupid it is to kill someone even more when it's about religion! Believe in anything you want to if that makes you happy but do it peacefully and be tolerant with who thinks otherwise.

domingo, 21 de novembro de 2010

(un)happy birthday

Yesterday it was my 21th birthday!
I hate my birthday since I'm a teengaer, usually I get depressed and feel blue for a thousand reasons one of them is that it doesn't matter the years of your life but the life of the years you live, in my case I think I didn't live too many years and the years I live had almost no life. I tried to change and I did it, although everyone who is surrounding me they're just not able and motivated to change they live a boring life, tied to emotions I really think they are scared of living!
It's quite sad but although I have a great number of people who say they care about me and they say they are my friends the fact is that they really aren't at the friendship level...although I did simple things that have importance and they considered enough to call me friend. I could have been their friend but unfortunatelly few or almost no one did that simple things for me that would make the difference...in fact it's the 2nd time I try to have a decent birthday party and no one is up to it. This year I made some invitations people not even answer me so I quit...I know I'm alone the only thing I have to say is that I regret all the time I spent with them, and in the most important days of their life starting from now on I'll never ever be there (because I was there for them but no one was ther for me).
It's so frustrating when you have no one that really cares for you and wants to spend this important day with you...not even family.
So what did I do?
I almost thought staying at home crying and regret my existence and ask myself: "why do hell I live? Nobody likes me!"...but I decided not to do that because after all this is my day, and if nobody cares I do!
So I did the most weird thing I ever could do alone, I not even know how I had the courage and the free will to do that but I went for a stroll in the mountain range of Sintra (a small city 40 minutes by train from Lisbon, Portugal), and I visited a stunning place there: the palace of Pena and its gardens (you can see it in the picture above that I took from a mountain ridge).
I really needed to see something beautiful in the world so I could relieve my soul and my heart from all the pain of being lonely.
As I walked alone through the forest darkened by the treetops all I could hear was my steps and the wind whispering...for a few hours it was all my world was made of: the nature and the magical view I could appreciate. For a few hours there were no problems, there were no people, there were no judgements it was just me and the nature celebrating the fact I'm alive and it felt good.
The biggest lesson I learnt yesterday is that you can't stop doing the things you like just because you have no one up to do that with you, and so it's better you forget that persons, the point is: just don't make the presence or absence of the others in your life a preponderant issue for your happiness.
Just free yourself from the prision of the emotions and overcome the unhappines.
If you ever spent your birthday alone just don't even think you should never celebrate it because there's no one who really seems to like you...the only person you can count with is yourself.

sexta-feira, 19 de novembro de 2010

If you don't love yourself, you can't love anybody. That's why I hate everyone.

welcome to my universe

What you can read here? Well I write stuff about my life, my points of view, my perspective of the world...I really don't find it easy to write nice things about life so it won't be very positive to read because I don't write pink stuffs so people can be blind by stupidity of owning the happiness no matter how wrong they are. Because the ones who try to be conscious of the truth will never be spared the suffering.
This is me, this is my universe.

If I was

1)If I was a historical personality I would be: Hypatia from Alexandria or Jeanne D'Arc
2)If I was a colour I would be: green
3)If I was a drink I would be: coffee
4)If I was a subject I would be: physics
5)If I was a living celebrity I would be: Gerard Way
6)If I was a country I would be: scandinavian
7)If I was a city I would be: Copenhagen or Lisbon
8)If I was a band I would be: My Chemical Romance
9)If I was an animal I would be: a scorpion
10)If I would be a continent I would be: Europe
11)If I was a season I would be: Winter
12)If I was a cartoon I would be: Peter Pan
13)If I was a movie I would be: Agora
14)If I was a trip: I would be an european inter-rail
15)If I was a genre of music I would be: punk, rock
16)If I was a sport I would be: skydiving
17)If I was a cosmic element I would be: a black hole
18)If I was a urban tribe I would be: EMO
19)If I was a meteorological phenomenon I would be: an aurora borealis
20)If I was a direction I would be: north
21)If I was a culture I would be: celtic
22)If I was a mythological figure I would be: a vampire
23)If I was a 7 deadly sin I would be: despair/sorrow
24)If I was something good I would be: true friendship
25)If I was something bad I would be: revenge
26)If I was a language I would be: portuguese
27)If I was a citation: "I am nothing, I will never be anything nevertheless I have in me all the dreams of the world", Fernando Pessoa

an introduction to my Universe

Hi dear readers!
My name is Celta and I'm portuguese.
This is my second blogue. I decided to write this one in english because a few days ago I discovered how I can see the public that visited my blogue: My Universe (written in portuguese: www.juana-myuniverse.blogspot.com) and I was very surprised to know that more than 2000 people have seen my blogue since May of 2010 to November 2010 (total 2194). Well 1385 were brazilian and 594 portuguese but other people from other countries may not understand my blogue if they don't understand portuguese, for my surprise from USA 125 people saw it, from Denmark 29, Canada 19, Germany 11, United Kingdom 8, Russia 7, Switzerland and Sweden 5 and Norway, Poland, Belarus 2.
So about 13 countries, 11 don't speak portuguese.
I never imagine so many people read what I wrote, in fact I only have 5 followers and I almost never receive comments.
So I decided it would be interesting share my perspective with all world.
Hope you enjoy, feel free to comment.